FRICKING HELL!

I finally got so frustrated with Flames antics I asked to talk to him online. He come on and seemed a little pissed at me to be honest.

When I asked him if he felt anything for me he said he didn't and in fact our previous relations had only reminded him how much he loves his girlfriend and would never want to do anything to hurt her or betray her.

So basically I was nothing, am nothing and will always be nothing to him.

What an ass! How dare he string me along and send out false messages to me! All this time I've been lusting after him and wondering 'what ifs' he's actually been on a completely different wavelength daydreaming about his beloved girlfriend.

Well to be honest I've been a bit of a dick. My boyf has apparently been reading this although it doesn't seem it, he doesn't ask about the content. I really love the boyf and he's an absolute doll. But I need drama in my life! Passion, love, anger, romance, frustration, a theme tune!

At least now I have closure.