My Day - Episode Twenty Five

Well this morning was all well and good. I got up a ridiculous time to curl my hair and accidentily chose an amazing outfit. So I looked really nice today and got lots of lovely comments which made me feel a zillion times gorgeous.

First thing was philosophy. I'm beginning to like having this first. It's quiet and relaxing and sets me up to be calm and collect my thoughts for the day. So I came out of that in a good mood. And as a plus I found that Curltop, Fungi and P.Diddy were waiting so I was smug. Then I had snazzy Psychology which was good because we watched Criminal minds and i did a minute bit of revision. Teach also mentioned that she would like some help with some year 7's who were making messy Zen gardens in fourth so I volenteered to help with that, like a good girl.

Then in third it was English which was a pretty lazy lesson. Had a bit of a laugh with the girls and teased Coopdogg. Lunch was a laugh as we talked about jumping out on people to scare them. Apparently Cheshire hid under a bed for hours just to scream and scare her sister. That is commitment to humour right there. Oh Yah.

Fourth I grabbed the wonderful Goldilocks and we went to scoop up sand with Year 7's. It was really nice because at the end of it they all shouted "Thannkkkyyyooouuu" and it was adorable because they all actually listen! Love teaching the younger years. It makes year 9's and 10's seem so much worse though. Urgh.

Then last it was a Bio test which I got a D in again, but I care very little. Sir showed us that last topic we had the same pattern of improving from bad to good so we just need to continue revising, and I hadn't done any revision at all so it was just all guesses. It was cute to see Him so hard at work too, his thinking face is adorable.

On the way home I had an...interesting bus journey. Found out Handsome One is actually cought in a difficult situation with the girl he wants, it's painful for him. Bless. Oh and we also managed to tell each other that we like each other a bit much. Well at least we know and we both don't want to do anything. Awesome.

Walking home was a laugh because we found out my hair goes crazy when my umbrella is up. It floats. What do you know. Got home, had some tea, read some book, did some workout, ate some choccy to negate effects of workout. All good.

I'm off! Byyeee

Eventful Bus Journeys

My bus journeys are THE MOST enjoyable they have ever been. I have people on there I can look forward to seeing instead of dread having to deal with. There aren't any super annoying girls with tendancies to shag whatever moves. *Cough* Pushpop *Cough*. I love them

On the bus there is Headphone man, Handsome One, Owl Boy and Ferret Boy, Ballsforbrains and Rugbyboy. All guys, as you might tell. So obviously they appreciate me as the only female there. I do have breasts after all, which come up in daily conversation. Today it was debating whether they are small or not. Handsome One says yes, Headphone man says no just to let you know. So these guys are awesome, they make my day.

Then we have the games we play. Headphone man hates his knees being touched so obviously at every unsuspecting moment I have to grab them. Handsome one hates his ears being flicked, so you know what I do. Oh and Rugbyboy gets really into playing YellowGreenCarSmartCarMiniSlagOldman. Which is our newly improved version of Yellow Mini which frankly is too boring. Oh and you tickle for smart cars, not punch.
Then there is yawn rape. This is just between me and Headphone man, who is my morning buddy usually. Just stick your fingers in someones mouth when they yawn. I'm awesome at it but he keeps getting me off guard.
And finally the guys play that circle game where you make a circle and if they look then you get to punch them, if they pop it then they get two and if you catch them then you get one and one to the head. I don't really get that one, I much prefer YellowGreenSmartCarMiniSlagOldman. Way more fun.

So that is my bus journeys recently!

Back on Track

Mainly there are two things back on track.

1. My school work. As you know this really gets me down when I get a bad grade. So to make up for it I've been taking all the bad grades, rewriting and throwing them back at teachers and demanding a remark. This makes me feel better in the mean time. I also got an A in my English coursework which is a big whoop for me. :)

2. My emotions. I was feeling a rollercoaster, with one minute I'd be on top of the world and the next in the pits of despair. Himmelhoch jauchzend und zum tode betrübt. Up one minute and down the next. Now I feel generally up apart from a few hiccups to do with Him. He's so easy to offend, I feel I have to be wary.

But all is getting better. Touch wood.

My Day - Episode Twenty Four

Right, I haven't done one of these for ages because I became really worried that my days are actually boring as hell. But this weekend was reasonably eventful so I'll do a two day - my day coverage for you.

Friday day I had a really awesome day, my bus journeys get better and better as I familiarise myself with everyone and get comfortable. We've been having a lot of fun recently playing our version of yellow car which is yellow-green-car-slut-oldman. Trust me, it's way more fun. I may introduce a rule where you have to tickle if you see a smart car.
So I got in from school, radio blaring, dancing whilst packing to go to my dads. As soon as I got in the car my mood plummeted, my dad was bitching and whining for the whole car journey and refused me having friends over for the Saturday. Not to mention I was plagued with the feeling I had forgotten something vitally important.

So when I got in and then I had another tiff with Dad and I went upstairs, on the verge of tears. I searched for my phone to try and text Him to cheer me up. Only it wasn't there. Or anywhere, I had totally forgotten it. So naturally, I broke down feeling cut off from the world (the internet was also spazzing out) and cried for a while. Eventually I had to show my face and soon Dad and his Girlf caught on and cheered me up with tea and words of courage.

I slept well and in the morning I was feeling a heck of a lot better. It was the weekend officially I wanted to cheer up - a clean slate. I was even boring myself with my soaring emotions and rollercoaster of moods. So I spent the day with Him. It was amazing and a bit daunting in a way. Amazing because I was totally at ease, playing and laughing with Him. I can't even remember what we were laughing about (Donkey balls...something like that) but it was so funny he had coke coming out of orifices it shouldn't.

Then he left and I played on the Wii for a while and then read New Moon (I finished Twilight for the third time now). Saturday night I spent bonding with Dad's girlf until one in the morning which was awesome. Then today I went shopping with her and gave her my student discounts and she treated me to a new top. I practically paid for it myself in the dicounts I got her, awesomesauce.

So now I should be feeling a lot better, but only if my grades improve.

OH WAIT. I forgot to mention why hanging with Him was daunting. Right, we had our first 'us' talk. We had to discuss what might happen when we get to Uni. It's complicated because I can't predict how I will feel then, I only know what's happening right here, right now. And that might change. So hey, we're gonna take it how it comes. :)

That's really it now. Ciao! :D

Inner Monologue

Much too tired to post a real blog.

I love Twilight. Or rather I love the romance side of Twilight and not the action part, I want to skip that bit and just read the tantilising tension between Bella and Edward.

I wish I had more energy, more time in the day.

Stress levels are at an all time high.

I think too much.

I criticise too much, stick in reverie and self-analysis all the time.

I realised at last where all my clothes were going - my sister managed to steal about 5 pairs of undies, 3 shirts and 3 socks. Yes. Three socks, none of them matched. How annoying. She gave me some old tops though. Green, that's a new concept for me.

I wish I wore more colours.

I need sellotape to stick that bus ticket to the growing line of bus tickets. I'm pretty sure it's not normal to stick bus tickets in a line, side by side. Oh how I wish they were chronological. That was the word I lost the other day! Found it. Yay.

Oh, I organised my t-shirt draw today by style. I have vest top and tank top pile, normal tees pile and then collared or long top style. What fun, it make me so happy.

I saw my cousins today. One has put on loads of weight because of the medication she is on and the other has lost it by eating McDonalds. Crazyballs. Watch out for them.

Night!

Self Expectations

I have come to realise that perhaps I am too hard on myself. I wouldn't class my self-expectations of myself to be too high, they are all achievable, but I really do beat myself up about it when I'm nowhere near them or heading off track.

I got another bad grade, I swear the quality of my work has gone down very very far in the past month and that could be due to many things. I'm guessing it's down to laziness, stress and being distracted by the new boyf. But I'm working on it.

Right now I have rewarded myself for doing homework with a cup of tea and some chocolate covered Oreogasms. Yum.

Twilight Vs Life

Round One.
The boyfriends. My own is currently amazing, despite the fact he doesn't sparkle in the sunlight. He bought me a rose for no apparent reason and I'm sure if he was immortal he would not hesitate to bring me into it with him. I feel so comfortable around him, I even fell asleep for a good twenty minutes in his arms which has only happened once before at three o'clock in the morning and this was like the middle of the day!
LIFE 1 TWILIGHT 0

Round Two.
Personal characteristics. Well for one thing Bella is more generous and the way she thinks is amusing and insightful. My meandering thoughts are no-where near as entertaining and the most insightful I get is "Has my garage been painted?" (Yes by the way.)
LIFE 1 TWILIGHT 1

Round Three.
Mood. My mood recently has been getting a lot better. I was in a mega bad mood and people around me were in awful moods and this really affects me. Now, Owl Boy is in a much better mood and the step-dad even made me a cup of tea today. I'm currently at the bit in Twilight when Bella is hating Forks and hasn't yet discovered Edwards permeating magnificence.
LIFE 2 TWILIGHT 1

Life wins! This was a longwinded and pointless way of saying that I'm in a much better mood thank you very much. :D