Family
First cause it's gonna being the biggest probably. Best news! Mum and N are engaged! YYYAAYY He will officially become part of the family after like 9 years. Worst news... I had a huge argument with C that lasted about two days and it's shattered my trust and friendship in her. I can't really forgive her for the stuff she's said and I see nothing to apologise for, so it's a brush it under the rug situation. I can grin and bear it. Mum had a go at me today because I disobeyed her rules and had guys sleep over when she was on holiday so now I'm now allowed to stay in the house alone when they next go on holiday as a punishment. Tbh, that's not very bad, I can live with that.
Friends
All is awesome and well, seeing everyone regularly, sharing problems with everyone and feeling pretty darn secure.
Love
Super happy and super worrying. Arguments and petty squabbles seem to happen more often than I would like and I've come to realise that I'm not myself with them, I act more childish and stupid to make them want to love me and protect me more. Don't know what will happen here, tis early.
Soul
It's taken too much trauma recently and I feel weaker and like I need some sort of anchor in these times. I've had huge arguments and real upset as well as some really good news and happiness. The rollercoaster is making me sick.
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