So today was the last exam day. I woke up extremely nervous and about twenty minutes ealier than usual. Dressed too fast and breakfast didn't take long, leaving me extra time in the morning to not only revise but panic.
One second, my multivitamin is stuck in my throat, I hate that feeling when you dry swallow something and it just sticks about under your collarbone. Yuk. Okay I got some water and I'm fine now.
Then I had breakfast and I got a horrible bit of gristle in my food that only heightened the need to be sick. I didn't because I'm very good at not being sick (haven't for 3 years). Then I set out to school, met George on the way who very nicely dealt with my huge nervousness. God even thinking about it is making my tummy flip over. Revised on the bus, revised at school.
Finally made it into the exam feeling well prepared. Mind mapping helped loads and I managed to never get stuck, even writing for the whole 90 minutes. It went well but I could still get a bad grade, hopefully not though.Got out feeling totally elated. We went over answers and I wasn't totally shit scared that I put the wrong thing, so that's a plus. Visited Ms James and she seemed pleased with what we wrote. God I hope it's a good mark.
I was in a free when I came out so I didn't do anything. Then in Psych we watched a documentary about mind control which was interesting and I practically did nothing in my frees as well after realising that actually I didn't let too much slip during exam season. Then got on bus, messed about with Georgie and the boys, walked him having a laugh with George again (he's such a staple!) and got home. First thing I did was read a section of my favourite book, then I moved on to catching up with all the tv I missed - Skins, true blood, glee (which was so sad I cried my eyes out through the whole thing although I was due a cry really). And now I've just made a playlist of romantic and calm songs for background music for me and my Josie. :D
NIGHT xx happy.
Showing posts with label exams. Show all posts
Showing posts with label exams. Show all posts
Friday, 28 January 2011
Tuesday, 25 May 2010
Epic Blog Update
Oh Yes, I'm heading back to the traditional Belle style of catagorising things. :D
Health
Starting with the worst so you'll forget it by the end. I have the worst, cough/cold combo I have ever suffered. I'm currently on three different types of drugs, still can't breathe through my nose and feel like I swallowed a binbag full of ash. It's so dry and scratchy in the my throat right now, I'd rather chop a toe off than sneeze.... okay I lie. Only if the toe grew back perfect. I really hate one of my toes alright!
Body
New catagory! Coming into summer I am becoming incredibly body conscious. I don't think it's conscious... more aware. More body aware. I am aware I have a pinch of a belly - do I care...that's another matter. I have been eating shit for the past two weeks and also dropped four pounds. I'm going to blame revision and worry for that, so go you!
Mind
Of course I had to do mind if I had body! Well basically half of me feels like it's been bit off, chewed up, swallowed, sicked out and shat on by a panda. The other half is so elated it's like a helium balloon pulling on the depressed strings that attach it to the other half of my mind. OW I JUST COUGHED
Friends
One of my bessies has just suffered a loss which may hit her hard or softly. Either way, it's hit her and I am hoping to act as temporarily air bag to pain. I don't like my mates being hurt so I shall be doing my best to rally forth with too-soon jokes and texts filled with love and support! Yay! Other friends seem to be fine, none have any beef with me, which is lucky 'cause I feel like chicken tonight. :D Admit it, that joke was awesome. I don't feel awfully close to any one particular person recently and it's bothering me. It means that I have to turn to a different person for every crisis. Forbidden boy crisises go to DarlingOne whereas boyfriend crisis are shared between her, C and Cheshire. Then if I have a family crises I go to C as she is the voice of adult reason. And then if I have a body crisis I run straight to Cheshire again. What a palava. Almost wrote pavlova then which is totally different.
Love
Skip if you don't want to hear gooey happy sweet sickness because I'm afraid to say it's going rather well. We haven't argued properly in a long while and the little tiffs are easier to brush off because I can see now when I'm overreacting. The only thing coming between us is a few crush issues which I am personally ironing out. I miss him when he's away, when we are together there is no pressure to be an amazing girlfriend or attractive, I can just slump in his arms and he will still love me. He might ask me to move cause I'm crushing his arms but that's reality for you.
Bus
WAAAHHHH my darling headphone man will be leaving after his exams are done! He may only be here for a while longer and I'm gutted. We really got closer over the past few weeks and I loved chatting with him, trying to make him awkward in the mornings and beating him in the avo. He's promised to give me a bracelet when he leaves, bless the poor sod. XD
School
Exams are coming. Looming over me like a massive black hairy cloud with tentacles. I shall try and keep my cool but the closer I get, the more the Mind and Health departments will suffer. I am an absolute horror for nervous illnesses. Even meeting with the Krewe can send me bolting for the bathroom if it's an 'event'. Hate my own reflexes. I'll get through it though, with or without a cold. Grrr!
So that's my mega update and I still have hours left to kill before anyone is online. Do I revise or write an analysis of each person....? I KNOW!
Health
Starting with the worst so you'll forget it by the end. I have the worst, cough/cold combo I have ever suffered. I'm currently on three different types of drugs, still can't breathe through my nose and feel like I swallowed a binbag full of ash. It's so dry and scratchy in the my throat right now, I'd rather chop a toe off than sneeze.... okay I lie. Only if the toe grew back perfect. I really hate one of my toes alright!
Body
New catagory! Coming into summer I am becoming incredibly body conscious. I don't think it's conscious... more aware. More body aware. I am aware I have a pinch of a belly - do I care...that's another matter. I have been eating shit for the past two weeks and also dropped four pounds. I'm going to blame revision and worry for that, so go you!
Mind
Of course I had to do mind if I had body! Well basically half of me feels like it's been bit off, chewed up, swallowed, sicked out and shat on by a panda. The other half is so elated it's like a helium balloon pulling on the depressed strings that attach it to the other half of my mind. OW I JUST COUGHED
Friends
One of my bessies has just suffered a loss which may hit her hard or softly. Either way, it's hit her and I am hoping to act as temporarily air bag to pain. I don't like my mates being hurt so I shall be doing my best to rally forth with too-soon jokes and texts filled with love and support! Yay! Other friends seem to be fine, none have any beef with me, which is lucky 'cause I feel like chicken tonight. :D Admit it, that joke was awesome. I don't feel awfully close to any one particular person recently and it's bothering me. It means that I have to turn to a different person for every crisis. Forbidden boy crisises go to DarlingOne whereas boyfriend crisis are shared between her, C and Cheshire. Then if I have a family crises I go to C as she is the voice of adult reason. And then if I have a body crisis I run straight to Cheshire again. What a palava. Almost wrote pavlova then which is totally different.
Love
Skip if you don't want to hear gooey happy sweet sickness because I'm afraid to say it's going rather well. We haven't argued properly in a long while and the little tiffs are easier to brush off because I can see now when I'm overreacting. The only thing coming between us is a few crush issues which I am personally ironing out. I miss him when he's away, when we are together there is no pressure to be an amazing girlfriend or attractive, I can just slump in his arms and he will still love me. He might ask me to move cause I'm crushing his arms but that's reality for you.
Bus
WAAAHHHH my darling headphone man will be leaving after his exams are done! He may only be here for a while longer and I'm gutted. We really got closer over the past few weeks and I loved chatting with him, trying to make him awkward in the mornings and beating him in the avo. He's promised to give me a bracelet when he leaves, bless the poor sod. XD
School
Exams are coming. Looming over me like a massive black hairy cloud with tentacles. I shall try and keep my cool but the closer I get, the more the Mind and Health departments will suffer. I am an absolute horror for nervous illnesses. Even meeting with the Krewe can send me bolting for the bathroom if it's an 'event'. Hate my own reflexes. I'll get through it though, with or without a cold. Grrr!
So that's my mega update and I still have hours left to kill before anyone is online. Do I revise or write an analysis of each person....? I KNOW!
Thursday, 6 May 2010
A Baby Update
Don't get confused. This is not an update on the status of my baby. It's a small update on my life, just thought I needed to clear that up.
So, I'm motherless and step-father-thingless for two weeks as they have gone off to Florida for a fortnight. It's alright though, she's stocked us up on food and left notes around the house to remind us of things that need to be done like locking doors. Which I have not done... I'll get there. I'm going to stay with my dad for the first week of the holidays so I'm not too phased, little bit afraid to leave my sissy alone in the house for a week. She will actually turn into a nocturnal hermit crab.
In that time though I will be revising, shopping and spending time with friends and the dada. So it's not all bad. I'm feeling vaguely confident about the exams as I'm well into my two struggling subjects so it's not unfeasible to actually get a good grade.
One of my teachers emailed my tutor to say that me and Him are too 'amorous' in lessons and it was disrupting and distracting so we had to stop. So as a test (I do love my little self tests) I told Him to not touch me affectionately for the whole day, well almost. So he did and then the hug at the buses felt amazing. :D Annoying though that I couldn't remind him I was there with a small touch if he was busy. Grr. Worth it though, we will be cutting back on the amorousness to let you know.
Other than that, all is well. I'm fit and healthy apart from crippling pains in odd and stupid places.
So, I'm motherless and step-father-thingless for two weeks as they have gone off to Florida for a fortnight. It's alright though, she's stocked us up on food and left notes around the house to remind us of things that need to be done like locking doors. Which I have not done... I'll get there. I'm going to stay with my dad for the first week of the holidays so I'm not too phased, little bit afraid to leave my sissy alone in the house for a week. She will actually turn into a nocturnal hermit crab.
In that time though I will be revising, shopping and spending time with friends and the dada. So it's not all bad. I'm feeling vaguely confident about the exams as I'm well into my two struggling subjects so it's not unfeasible to actually get a good grade.
One of my teachers emailed my tutor to say that me and Him are too 'amorous' in lessons and it was disrupting and distracting so we had to stop. So as a test (I do love my little self tests) I told Him to not touch me affectionately for the whole day, well almost. So he did and then the hug at the buses felt amazing. :D Annoying though that I couldn't remind him I was there with a small touch if he was busy. Grr. Worth it though, we will be cutting back on the amorousness to let you know.
Other than that, all is well. I'm fit and healthy apart from crippling pains in odd and stupid places.
Tuesday, 12 January 2010
"Haze"
On my little igoogle page I have a little weather widget which tells me the forecast and like temperature.
Next to 'Current:' It said 'Haze'. Like Hazy or Hail but Haze.
When someone asks "What's the weather like over there?" Not ever have I heard someone say "Haze."
Although that's sort of how I feel at the moment. Revision for two subjects muddles my mind until I finally managed to separate it into two catagories. Now I've done one exam and the other is tommorow (Wish me luck) and my mind is all full of haze and mess!
Not to mention I had an arguement with my mum, tears on my side only this time but shouting on both. Really it was just a case of me being tense and stress and mum interpreting what I'd said to something really trivial and completely different to what I meant. Then of course I couldn't get a word in edgeways, so I raised my voice and she did to. It escalated and got blown way out of proportion.
After I'd confined myself to my room for a considerable amount of time to calm down, we talked it over like we usually do and it turned out that actually I just didn't want to eat the soup.
So there ya go.
Next to 'Current:' It said 'Haze'. Like Hazy or Hail but Haze.
When someone asks "What's the weather like over there?" Not ever have I heard someone say "Haze."
Although that's sort of how I feel at the moment. Revision for two subjects muddles my mind until I finally managed to separate it into two catagories. Now I've done one exam and the other is tommorow (Wish me luck) and my mind is all full of haze and mess!
Not to mention I had an arguement with my mum, tears on my side only this time but shouting on both. Really it was just a case of me being tense and stress and mum interpreting what I'd said to something really trivial and completely different to what I meant. Then of course I couldn't get a word in edgeways, so I raised my voice and she did to. It escalated and got blown way out of proportion.
After I'd confined myself to my room for a considerable amount of time to calm down, we talked it over like we usually do and it turned out that actually I just didn't want to eat the soup.
So there ya go.
Sunday, 3 January 2010
Oh Dear...
I really should be revising. But I'm taking time out of revising to tell you that I suck at revising!
At least I'm trying to learn! I'm never going to make it all the way through this book in time for the mock exam tommorow. I will just fail impressively and count the number of characters in each question to waste time.
I SUCK
At least I'm trying to learn! I'm never going to make it all the way through this book in time for the mock exam tommorow. I will just fail impressively and count the number of characters in each question to waste time.
I SUCK
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