Sorry Dudes

To y'all peeps. I am dearly sorry that I haven't blogged as much as I usually would. I got really peed when someone said "Oh, your blog is boring now, nobody wants to read it anymore." >.> Thanks.

But anyways, I shall perserve with my slightly dented enthusiasm. Recently I babysat for the first time ever and it went well, got given a cheesecake and some moneys for my effort. Which really wasn't much effort - I fell asleep after a while. Was there till gone 1! Gasp. Ah well.
Then yesterday I was out with part of the Krewe. Stag, Cheshire, Fungi, Thin One. Basically K-town lot plus Stag. It was nice. Most memorable bits were:
A random old man that none of us knew talking to Cheshire for literally about twenty minutes, she couldn't get away. We ran away. XD
Getting a ring stuck on my finger so I did that "OH NO OH NO" thing you do when that happens.
Getting incredibly hyper on a caramel milkshake, my heart was like beating in my throat and I felt so weird.
So yeah, all in all a pleasant day out. Then in the evening I was taken back to Fungis/Hims.
((I shall quickly explain this. Y'all know Fungi and Him are the same person, but I distinguish by writing Fungi if I think of him as a friend, one of the Krewe and Him when he my boyfriend, one and only blah blah. Gottit?))
So then I met Him's family (Again). Saw some repeat faces, everyone was really nice and it was so sweet, I was cowering in the corner and Him's mum was like "LET'S MINGLE!" and dragged me off to go and chat to everyone. Much loveliness.

Then me and Him headed back early, we watched Cruel Intentions which is an amazing film btw and then some thing about serial killers and then beddy byes. I slept round his for the first time ever. Two people + Single bed = Not a good idea. So eventually he did hop out and slept on the floor bless him. Still, I actually fell asleep before he left so the "slept in his arms" is now complete. It was dreamy. :)

Then in the morning, we were all couply and lovely. Chilled in bed talking for about 4 hours. Then we got up, washed and dressed. I introduced him to the wonderful world of eggy bread. Oh delicio. He's a convert now. Then I watched the finale of Glee. :( It's OVER! Cries. Have to wait till fookin Januar. Hopefully True Blood will come back and I can watch that in the meantime. Had to go home then.

At home, Mum and N-dawg were in the living room. I chatted to them for a while, then gave opinions on N-dawgs new tuxes and suits. We're going to my cousins wedding on Saturday. I GET TO WEAR MY PROMDRESS! Love it. So then they went out...somewhere. My sister is out....somewhere. I'm sat at home, Radio on blastmode. Rather funny. Reggie Yates is IN LOVE with Michael Buble. He keeps calling him the Boob. :) Has anyone noticed at the end of "Your love your love your love...is my drug" Kesha, she says "I like your beard." NO JOKE. Go check.

Byyeeee :D

The People

Bonjour readers. I am bored. So lets go! These are the things I would advise you or just tell you or things I think but don't say.

P.Diddy
I can see your scalp! Well not right now, but I could yesterday!

Anyways, you're super funny and super nice. Hope it's going well with that girly, I wish we talked more one on one. It seems that we are only ever together in groups.

Thin One
I'm really sorry I call you Thin One on here, I know you don't like it. I just couldn't think of anything interest...I JUST HAD AN EPIPHANY! Peter Rabbit. Do you know Peter Rabbit? You should know Peter Rabbit, he wore a waistcoat! Unfortunately I cannot be arsed to change the name, people will only be like "But I thought... so who is... What?!" At me and I don't like that. You're hiwawious man. I love talking to you, best person ever to chat with on msn. And I love your doggy. :D

Curltop Aka Newly-bathed-in-shame-boy
He won't read this because he's too busy being a tard. I don't see we bother even trying to include you in anything when all you do is pull away. You can be really nice when you want to be, so charming and funny, but that's not often. Most of the time you cancel plans, make cruel jokes and mock people without reason. Not to mention making silly foolish decisions without any valid reason apart from to protect yourself. You are a whelk.

Mr Electric Meter Man
You just came to my door to read the electric meter but I think I may be in love with you. Gorgeously tall, tanned and ripped beyond belief. You even make that stupid red Npower shirt look sexy. Take me to bed please Mr EMM. ;)

Marshal
You haven't spoken to me in ages WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY.

Frodo
Your trauma recently was really bad and although you are pretty weird, I will be here to lend an ear. (Rhyme!) I shall try not to judge you on preconcieved ideas that I created when you hated me for months, they aren't the nicest judgements. Clean slate boyo.

Stag
Awight. XD It's nice that we've kept things so lovely between us, you have no idea how afraid I was to loose that. You are the most selfless giving person ever and the depths of your forgiveness are unbelieveable. I can't say anything more than Thankyou. And update me more on girl-hunting! I like to be in the know. :)

My dear Fungi, Him.
Don't be so paranoid about your looks, you're gorgeous to me. I get blown away by how lovely you are and all the tiny thoughtfullnesses aren't forgotten. Trying extra hard to make weaker tea, giving me a rose without reason, massive easter egg when I asked for nothing and bearing with having the heater on when you might die from overheating already. I love you.

And now my girlies!
Cheshire
You are so like an iceberg! Not in the sense that you are cold at all because you are so warm and bright, but because you have the most beautiful tip of the iceberg that people see but then all that is hidden is even more interesting. I feel like I'm finally getting to know you really, and not just the funny public side that makes weird faces across lunch tables and then makes a Scottish face before the accent. :D We click so well and you're so easy to get along with, much love my dear!

Goldilocks
Oh goldi goldi goldi. What can I say? The best person to shop with and one that will also sit and get fat with me in McDonalds. Your antics are hilarious and I can't wait to see you again every time and hear the latest story of what's going on in your mind, be it the Arctic Tundra or how to cure world hunger with cannibalism. XD

DarlingOne
Mr dearest rock. So solid and dependable. If I ever need a cry about another silly heartbreaking boy it's to you. Our only problem is being too alike so when we argue we ARGUE. But still, I wouldn't change a smidge. Love the new hair by the way, you're a killer redhead. :D

Skootch/Dollface
There are moments when I will sit across from you and think...Good god this woman is actually mental... and I love it! You're wonderfully paranoid and I love being able to give someone advice and feel all wisened and whatnot. You are a wonderful addition to the girl power side of the Krewe and definately provide much needed entertainment in my otherwise bland days.

Wallflower
I wish we could talk more! I miss the days of pretending to do lengths in the pool so we could catch up whilst bobbing. We ought to go for tea and cake sometime, I right fancy a brownie in the avo. I hope all your life is okay, you never really let much on during the brief times we speak but you seem well enough to fuss over big and small bags. Love you deary.

And onto the ones who are gone from my life, be that a good thing or not.
Dickface
Go die, throw yourself down a ditch with your skinny bitch of a girlfriend and I hope a large shard of metal peirces your stupid head. : )

RainbowDoll
I miss you right now. Our choc and chats were so deep and soul-healing. I'm in mental agony at the minute and I wish I could bring back the old you for a good suger-filled chat. You know exactly what I'm feeling right now in certain areas and I can only wish that you were here to talk reason into me.

BarbieDoll
I miss having one person to rely on, you were that one for so long in my life. You really helped me through that time where I lost almost everything and I never thanked you enough for that. I hope your new life is treating you well and that your exams go swimmingly. : )

Hope I have not insulted anyone during this, love you all except one and a half : D

My Holidays So Far

Was going to be a my day post but no doubt I'll do a diary thing where I jump back and forth through days and things.

Well the other day... Sunday, Fungi, my darling Him, came over. We mainly played on Sims 3 and I am totally addicted now. The two of us are on there and are living together with four kids, lots of dying plants and still no wedding. It's rather funny. I accidentily killed Him once but I went back to the last save and all was well. Wouldn't it be awesome if you could do that in everyday life? AAA I'm embarassed, CTRL + Z. That's better, avoid tripping on curb and all is well! I guess it would get annoyed, you'd get someone propose and keep rewinding until you said yes, you'd never move on with life.

TANGENT OVER.

I've been working diligently on my revision. I'm over halfway through in Philosophy, two thirds in Bio and Psych and getting started on English Language. You can't really revise that I suppose, but I try. I just wanted to brag.
I was feeling really restless earlier when I woke up and feeling podgy. (In the holidays I barely move and overeat so tend to slam on weight like crazy, between year 11 and 12 I gained a stone. It was stupid.) So I went for a jog.

No, really. I really went for a jog. It was nice actually, despite the fact I can only run in three minute bursts and I have to stop after about 15 minutes out. I took the route through the old park I used to hang about in, past my old house then looped round through the jitty (which is an alleyway to all you posh readers) and back through past an old friends house. I see going out as an opportunity to go down memory lane so I tend to haunt the same places.

Frodo has stolen my love Thin One and Fungi and taken them captive in a static caravan in great yarmouth! Aka, they've gone on holiday. Luckily, Thin One has a dongle! (Suspect giggle...) So I could talk to them via webcams so I felt in on the action. Mostly it was Fungi complaining about Frodo's farts and background noises of halo but it was still nice to talk to my babe while he's away. He's over again on thursday, but in the meantime I'm going to revise and then shopping with Goldilocks tommorow. Which I still need to organise.

I watched Bride Wars this morning, made me sad because I don't have a best girl friend. Not one where it is mutual anyway. I have many really good friends but if I asked them who was their best friend I have no doubt that they woud say someone elses name. I wish that I had one really good childhood friend that would stick with me and go where I go in life... :'(

Ah well, I have lots of really good friends and a sense of close knit family ( be it with those odd uncle and aunties that we all wish we could get rid of) and there aren't many people that can say that.

So overall life is going pretty well. I guess I should have called this an update,  but I would have to scroll back up to do that and you don't know the extent of my laziness. :) CIAO

My Day - Episode Twenty Five

Well this morning was all well and good. I got up a ridiculous time to curl my hair and accidentily chose an amazing outfit. So I looked really nice today and got lots of lovely comments which made me feel a zillion times gorgeous.

First thing was philosophy. I'm beginning to like having this first. It's quiet and relaxing and sets me up to be calm and collect my thoughts for the day. So I came out of that in a good mood. And as a plus I found that Curltop, Fungi and P.Diddy were waiting so I was smug. Then I had snazzy Psychology which was good because we watched Criminal minds and i did a minute bit of revision. Teach also mentioned that she would like some help with some year 7's who were making messy Zen gardens in fourth so I volenteered to help with that, like a good girl.

Then in third it was English which was a pretty lazy lesson. Had a bit of a laugh with the girls and teased Coopdogg. Lunch was a laugh as we talked about jumping out on people to scare them. Apparently Cheshire hid under a bed for hours just to scream and scare her sister. That is commitment to humour right there. Oh Yah.

Fourth I grabbed the wonderful Goldilocks and we went to scoop up sand with Year 7's. It was really nice because at the end of it they all shouted "Thannkkkyyyooouuu" and it was adorable because they all actually listen! Love teaching the younger years. It makes year 9's and 10's seem so much worse though. Urgh.

Then last it was a Bio test which I got a D in again, but I care very little. Sir showed us that last topic we had the same pattern of improving from bad to good so we just need to continue revising, and I hadn't done any revision at all so it was just all guesses. It was cute to see Him so hard at work too, his thinking face is adorable.

On the way home I had an...interesting bus journey. Found out Handsome One is actually cought in a difficult situation with the girl he wants, it's painful for him. Bless. Oh and we also managed to tell each other that we like each other a bit much. Well at least we know and we both don't want to do anything. Awesome.

Walking home was a laugh because we found out my hair goes crazy when my umbrella is up. It floats. What do you know. Got home, had some tea, read some book, did some workout, ate some choccy to negate effects of workout. All good.

I'm off! Byyeee

Hate

There was a rather overdramatised drama including me recently, I shall elaborate.

I had a barbecue and was aware that a few people wouldn't be able to make it as they were visiting family or had other plans. One of those people was Curltop. I was under the impression he was off visiting family or something and had accepted that.
When he rang Marshal at the barbecue and said that he needed to meet up, I was a little confused, but chalked it down the fact that he must have gone earlier and got home already. I got annoyed because when suggested he should come to the barbecue he said "I don't want to come to the fucking barbecue." (This has all been said before, repeating so this post makes sense) but okay, I was only a little annoyed - he had done this before after all.

So then when I got into school and he says that he was actually home all day and actually he just 'couldn't be bothered' to come I really got annoyed. I had taken time out of my day to organise it, and it was all his friends there - so why not come? So fears that he may hate me rose up again. Then at the lockers the next day P.Diddy tells me that yes, he does hate me. And also he has the impression that I hate him. WHAT? I do not hate him, I'm too busy trying to get him to like me or fight for his goddamn approval which I have never seemed to gain. So I asked Fungi to have a word and went home and cried, like I do.

Then the next day I was told that apparently he only hates me because he thinks I hate him.
1. I don't hate him.
2. What would that achieve? "You hate me? Okay, I hate you" Yeah, that fixes a friendship.
3. Why has he not spoken to me about this, in fact, not spoken to me at all in the past week?
So I confronted him. Upset, angry, confused. I wasn't the nicest person about it I will admit.
Then Cheshire says "Oh you could have been nicer about that" and Goldilocks says "Oh, you should just apologise." Why can nobody see that I am not in the wrong here?
You cannot say that if you thought a so called friend had the impression you hated them, and therefore hated you back, you would not be a nice person about it!

Gees. Rant over people.

Peekaboo

Thought you'd like a little update on my life, a little peekaboo one might say. I was going to do it in a My Day post but most of this stuff actually didn't happen today, today was boring to put it lightly. It's time for a Q and A!!

Well. I am officially off the market, again. I know, I know.
"You just came out of a relationship cause you thought it was too heavy!" - Too heavy with that one person, we were having a very very monotonous serious relationship and I wasn't ready for that.
"I thought you were going to stay single for a while... what happened to that idea?" - I was going to. But I really have liked this guy for a while, as previous blogs and my diary tell. I'm not one to wait around. I had been over Stag before we even broke up, so in my mind it's been much more time. I guess this guy is just too great to ignore while I play the scene.
"So you're starting a new relationship?" - Yes. It's much more lighthearted this time. I'm going into it with an idea of how fast I want to take things, and nothing is in a rush to get it all one, I can savour things this time around.
"Won't this just get serious fast as well?" - Hopefully not. It's a different guy and we have spoken about it before. He's happy to wait until I want to and he's in no rush himself. Although he was the first to say that he thinks he's in love with me. So I guess that is pretty serious.
"What is he like?" - He's lovely. Pure loveliness. He's sweet and cute but sexy too and without realising it. Oh and super smart, determined. I'm really falling for him hard.
"Oh that's so cute! So who is it?" - It's Him. It's Fungi. It's New Crush. All the same person.
"So how is it going so far?" - Well... we had a really minor hiccup but it was just me being picky and paranoid. Other than that it's been smooth sailing. I try not to compare him to Stag, but there's always going to be a part of me that wants to.
"How is Stag with all of this? Aren't they friends?" - Yeah, and really good ones too. Well I've spoken to Stag and he pretty much had already guessed. He blogged about it a while ago giving his permission but we weren't sure about him being over us. We kept it quiet for a while until we were absolutely sure that he was okay, which he is - hence the new honesty.
"Well, I wish you luck!" - Aww thankyou, you guys are all so nice.

See you!

My Day - Episode Fourteen

Well we shall go from the actual beginning of 27th of Feb. At midnight I was still on msn talking to P.Diddy and Fungi. My latest night ever, I didn't get to sleep until gone One! That's the latest night I've had whilst at home in about half a year, I really need to be more interesting...

So then this morning I was woken at Nine O'clock by a wonderful text from Him. He just dropped me a note to say that he was thinking about me, didn't get much sleep and could barely wait to see me next. So that was the nicest wake up call.

I had a bit of an odd breakfast time. Whilst continually texting Him I got some pizza from last nights dinner, warmed it up for breakfast. (Yes, I'm a tramp and really weird for eating dinner foods at brekky, we have gathered this.) And then I popped open a coke and took a sip, ready to sit down. Then my head began to spin, I had a hard feeling down my throat like I had swallowed a massive pill or something and my vision was blacking out. Immediately I got down on the floor and half lay down to make sure I didn't faint. My vision completely went and my head was spinning but I stayed conscious thank god. So then I got a drink of water and had to sit and recover for a while. Sheba gave me the biggest lick ever across my face, yuck.

Oh! I didn't mention. I'm staying at my Dads house and his girlfriend's dog is here as well recovering from an operation to remove a lump. Sheeba has to wear one of those cones so she doesn't lick her wounds and getting it off this morning was a right calamity! She's a big dog so she can't turn in the hallway without scraping the cone along the wall and wouldn't stay still to get this stupid thing off. That was a laugh.
I manged to get my breakfast in the end. Then I was washed, dressed and off to head for the town!

Walking there I realised how much I love my home town, it's not pretty, it's not horrific but I love walking the familiar streets and remembering things from my childhood. Then when I got there Stag (the ex) was there with Curltop. Chatted to them and then Fungi, Cheshire, The Thin One arrived shortly followed by Goldylocks. P. diddy was mega late. We wandered around town, shopped a bit, got some foods, went to Stags house and hung out. Me and Cheshire got a bit deep, more troubles on the western front.

So yeah, everything went well. Walked home in the bollock-freezing cold.Then just came on here. So that was my day, enjoy yours!

Big Mouth!

What the heck is wrong with me?
I cannot answer a question dishonestly to friends. I can lie to a perfect stranger pretty convincingly or if needs be to someone I know if it's to protect something. But if a friend asks me a question and complete honesty, I just blurt all.

I basically just admitted a heck of a lot of stuff to most of my friends which I sooooo shouldn't have.
One friend looked totally freaked at my answers like they were totally uncomfortable with being there and disgraced by our behaviour.
Luckily Curltop was missing and that one person probably would have made me hold my tongue, I can't open up as much with them around. I think they judge me.

But yeah, I had a nice time round the Thin One's house where this whole thing happened. Happy Birthday to him by the way. I thought it was going to be a replay of when we went to P. Diddy's house and just watched big bang theory for ages and didn't actually talk but actually after we moved into a cooler area people began to chat and the Tv was ignored. Even the Thin One's porn collection got ignored after a while.
Oh and Creep and the Boyfriend seemed to have become friends a little better. Boyfriend may still hold a mini grudge against him but he's been a darling and playing nice.