My Day - Episode Nineteen

I was going to do a general rant but to be honest most of the stuff that I'm going to rant about happened today, so it's a half My Day blog.

Okay so this morning we had a talk to round out about yesterday and the pressure they are putting on us to get things sorted about a year earlier is intense, I don't do well under pressure. Like I break down and cry. (Crying features a lot today by the way.)

Then in English I was close to tears because I was really lagging behind and I feel that in the exam I just won't be able to apply the time limits, I write too much. So when Miss was like "It's alright Becca, you'll get better." I was LITERALLY biting the inside of my cheek so hard so I wouldn't start tearing up.

In IEC today I realised how much I really hate year nines, and also how much I like teaching people who are willing to learn. One guy just never puts pen to paper although he is perfectly capable of doing it and it infuriates me as he is right, I don't have any authority to make him do anything. But then another girl who used to never work now calls me over and I help her, and she finishes the work early and all to a higher level with just me giving the odd prompt.

Then in the second IEC I was teaching, once again year nines, I just felt so useless. All of these kids were milling round me and I felt like a rock in a river, completely out of place and resisting the flow. So I went up to the teacher I was working with, faked a headache and teared up a little and he let me leave. So I ran away in hopes I could find solace in the arms of Him but of course this was one day that he was in there for the whole time and I ended up sitting, alone, upset and completely not doing anything of use. I know it wasn't his fault but I stll get upset at the fact he wasn't there when I needed him. :(

Oh not to mention that I really have lost all leadership within the Krewe. Somebody has completely taken my place, organising events left right and center. Even when I walk away, they don't follow me ONE CORRIDOR to put my lunchthing away. And I'm betting it was because They didn't move. I even had to squeeze through Him and Snake(Totally changing his name sometime.)

Then on the way home I almost got ran over by an old lady on a bike and I got sand in my eye and walked straight into a lamppost. I bumped my head on the counter in the garage and REALLY hurt myself. Then my sister kept making me feel really nervous about me Uni choices although she is only trying to keep me cautious.

So today was a shit day.

P.s The only positive thing today was my sister falling down the decking stairs which was HILARIOUS. I did my real laugh for AGES and realised how long it has been since I have actually laughed that real-ly....which then depressed me.

Animals

In the last post I mentioned that we assigned animals to people that we thought were most suitable. This might be a good bit of fun to decide people's animals! By the way I'm talking animals personality traits not in any way people look like these, if they do then it's just chance.

Previously Curltop will now be Llama
Llamas have curly fur, I think, so that will help me remember. I like llamas, but not when they spit. And this guy can spit some pretty nasty stuff but bless him he doesn't mean it. And they have pretty long legs?

Goldilocks is very much Puppy
I say puppy because she is loyal if a little naive, fun if a little ditzy and may need to be toilet trained. Joke. And it would be a golden retreiver puppy if you want to be specific.

Boyfriend is difficult...H would want me to say wolf but I don't think he is. He's a Stag.
Stags just remind me of like pure male power and yet they are graceful, much like Boyf and his dancing. And I love them in general. They are horny too....gettit!?

The Thin One is a Giraffe
Thin for one thing and a little kooky looking but most people love giraffes despite their weirdness. What animal looks like a giraffe exactly?! So individual. Blue tongues too. Oh and they can't make a noise.

Darling One is a Cat
Sh'e so small she could fit into tiny spaces like cats and she's just precious! Lazy, likes lying in the sun and yet she'll play like a kitten.

Creep is probably a Snake
Nothing too dangerous though! He's smart and very determined to get what he wants like academic goals and things and strangling prey... And they are a little creepy- but in a good way.

Wall Flower is definately a Racoon
Just her eyes remind me so much of a racoon, but fluffy tail but agitated and on edge, you just want to hug them - or is that just me?

 Fungi is absolutely 100% a Bear
So fluffy and loveable and you can train them to dance - need I say more?

Cheshire is a Lynx
She'd definately a cat because I just love all cats but my favourite is the lynx, untamable wild cat that can also be ginger.

P. Diddy is an Orangutan
Who doesn't love them? They are weird but strangely nifty with their hands - I mean fast typing skills nothing suspect you dirty gits!


Anyone that I have missed and wants an animal can comment! (l)

Big Mouth!

What the heck is wrong with me?
I cannot answer a question dishonestly to friends. I can lie to a perfect stranger pretty convincingly or if needs be to someone I know if it's to protect something. But if a friend asks me a question and complete honesty, I just blurt all.

I basically just admitted a heck of a lot of stuff to most of my friends which I sooooo shouldn't have.
One friend looked totally freaked at my answers like they were totally uncomfortable with being there and disgraced by our behaviour.
Luckily Curltop was missing and that one person probably would have made me hold my tongue, I can't open up as much with them around. I think they judge me.

But yeah, I had a nice time round the Thin One's house where this whole thing happened. Happy Birthday to him by the way. I thought it was going to be a replay of when we went to P. Diddy's house and just watched big bang theory for ages and didn't actually talk but actually after we moved into a cooler area people began to chat and the Tv was ignored. Even the Thin One's porn collection got ignored after a while.
Oh and Creep and the Boyfriend seemed to have become friends a little better. Boyfriend may still hold a mini grudge against him but he's been a darling and playing nice.

Creep And Boxing Day

Well last night was HILARIOUS to say the least. Me, Thin One, P.Diddy and Creep were all talking online, me and my secret keepers. And I said I wanted to be Megan Fox but typoed and said Mega Fox, hence this great evolution of everyone into MEGAFOX and abusing people online!

Creep is definately not creepy anymore. He still insists he likes me and will someday win me over although I remind him often that the chances of that happening are practically nonexsistent. He annoys me often by misinterpreting my actions, if I do anything nice to him or say anything vaguely complimentary he takes it as me harbouring a secret desire for him. The only secret desire I have is for a male model named David Oliver.... Oh David...

Anyways!

New years plans have gone a bit haywire since the boyf may be having a family New Years and some of the Krewe have backed out saying that they can't get out of their family New Years plans.


Damnit!

My day - Epsiode Seven

Well actually I lied. It's more what I've been doing since my last post.
I'll go for the most recent.

TODAY!
It snowed! Which means that my whole day plan was ruined. I was meant to be going off to my dad's house today until Xmas but of course the weather is too bad for him to come so the plans have been called off! Ah well. My and my sis donned the ugly hats and played in the snow. Mum was a bah humbug when she got home and told us we should have done something more useful.

YESTERDAY
Was our last day at school. Swapped pressies with Wallflower and Darling One, the two lovelies. I got some gorgeous smellies off Wallflower, Vanilla which is the best smell ever. And I got bracelets and The Notebook to read off her too. Darling One got me the most beautiful little flip mirror in a cutesy little pouch and a moulin rouge poster (I love!).
They know me so well.

Note: I think there are birds living in my wall, I can hear tapping and shuffling as I write... Worrying!

THE DAY BEFORE YESTERDAY
We had a half day at school and I had two frees in the morning. We swapped presents around the Krewe. Me and Goldilocks got each other and she got my a lovely lovely lovely Hunks calender with sexy men. I'm in love with Mr Septembers bum. <3 She also got me some yummy vanilla candles (Spotting a trend now? XD) and some revels.
From the boyf I got two more books by N.G, Cleave and The Book of Rapture. I'm reading the Book of Rapture at the moment. I love the pace which N.G writes it. For a long time it's just feelings described really poetically and really philosophical writings and then suddenly WHAM something really dramatic happens and it just stops your heart. Love her!

So anyways, half day and we went round to P.Diddy's house and watched a heck of a lot of Big Bang Theory. It sort of ended up like a battle ground as we found guns which shot foam bullets and ended up waging a war against everyone you could shoot. We totally trashed the house and I feel really bad for not staying and helping cleaning up. (Sorry dude!)

EPICALLY DRAMATIC NEWS:
Whilst this massive war was going on, ex-crush who now is more disgusting-horny-fanboy AKA Creep decided to join me hiding underneath a large pillow. He nuzzled up against my cheek and went "This is nice" and started to reach for me. Obv, I was totally freaked so I said "Get off me" and bolted out from under the pillow. I avoided him for the rest of the night.
When I got home he texted me saying that he apologises for ruining my evening and I told him not to text me again. He did because obviously he is brain dead. Nevertheless, I didn't reply again and he got the message.

The next day I told the boyf whow as not best pleased and is now on the hunt for blood, although luckily he's too much of a nice guy to do anything more than glare and shoulder barge people.
Later on I was on msn at home and then Creep came online and apologised again but also said that he doesn't take it back because it does reflect his feelings.
He then went on to tell me that he has basically been in love with me since year 8 and has dealt with rejection so many times he's just not going to give up anymore.

So there, that's what I've been doing recently. And now I am freaked.