Okay, I will admit I was not totally honest with you over the past few days. I wasn't lying, I just didn't tell y'all what's been going on. XD
Well, recently I've filled my hours with revision, sitting in the sun, eating oreogasms and wondering about life. And I have come to one solid conclusion. I really like my life just how it is. I don't want a new partner, I don't want a new school, I wouldn't accept different friends and I love my family just as the nutjobs they are.
OH MY GOD
THERE ARE HANDS GRABBING ON TO THE FENCE AND CHILDREN LOOKING OVER. IT'S THE MEXICAN CHILD.
And he has back up. O.O
"I am trying to be philosophical here!!"
"AIII AIIIIIII"
Back to reality. I've been feeling stuck in reverie, self reflecting and pits of swirling self-analysis and it's really bugging me. I feel like a horrible person when I say things but can't stop them coming out, I'm slacking on revision though I want amazing grades. Urgh. I'm happy with everything in life except BUG ON MY ARM...except me. :(
Cheer me up buttercup?
Thursday, 3 June 2010
Monday, 31 May 2010
My Day - Episode Twenty Seven
Haven't done a my day blog in a while, I keep wanting to go off topic. So I will, bwahaha.
So today, woke up a bit glum because my throat was killing me and I was absolutely knackered! I was up at 4 again coughing, silly lungs - behave! But anyways, yesterday it was my sisters birthday so we had a barbecue and I met lots of her friends (one I really warmed to and let borrow some manga and she was lovely!) and the rest were nice too, bonkers but nice.
My mum got v drunk and was joining in with festivities and had to meet the boyf's mum whilst tipsy - was hilarious. She was very embarassed though. Poor doll.
Anyways! Today. Woke up, sore throated but looking forward to the day. After I super cleaned the house from all the food and alkie bockles, I had Cheshire over. This was strange, but really nice. First time it was just me and her and round my house so it was like new but in a good way. She complimented my room lots, which is good - I'm not a freak with lots of fans and crap XD So we went for a walk and sat in a tree for like two hours talking about childhood holidays and friends and parties, all sorts. Bitched about a few people, we are human after all and then went home to eat biscuits and watch a chick flick.
It was really nice and chilled and totally what I needed out of a lazy bank holiday monday, so yay! Oh and I'm almost healed! Still got a sore throat from all the coughing but I can almost close my mouth and breathe like a normal person now. (Almost) :D
So today, woke up a bit glum because my throat was killing me and I was absolutely knackered! I was up at 4 again coughing, silly lungs - behave! But anyways, yesterday it was my sisters birthday so we had a barbecue and I met lots of her friends (one I really warmed to and let borrow some manga and she was lovely!) and the rest were nice too, bonkers but nice.
My mum got v drunk and was joining in with festivities and had to meet the boyf's mum whilst tipsy - was hilarious. She was very embarassed though. Poor doll.
Anyways! Today. Woke up, sore throated but looking forward to the day. After I super cleaned the house from all the food and alkie bockles, I had Cheshire over. This was strange, but really nice. First time it was just me and her and round my house so it was like new but in a good way. She complimented my room lots, which is good - I'm not a freak with lots of fans and crap XD So we went for a walk and sat in a tree for like two hours talking about childhood holidays and friends and parties, all sorts. Bitched about a few people, we are human after all and then went home to eat biscuits and watch a chick flick.
It was really nice and chilled and totally what I needed out of a lazy bank holiday monday, so yay! Oh and I'm almost healed! Still got a sore throat from all the coughing but I can almost close my mouth and breathe like a normal person now. (Almost) :D
Friday, 28 May 2010
Inner Monologue Ep. 2
Don't know what to say, la la la la la.
Bus journeys make my life so awesome right now. I love all my dudes on the bussss.
Cough cough cough! God I cough so hard I feel like I might puke, then I usually sniff and realise I am still not healed, despite feeling better. Maybe it's a mental thing, feeling better.
Headphone man is such an amazing person, I found out so much about him recently cause like he totally opened up. He's a lot like me really, able to open up a lot easier over msn or something where I can't see his face.
I hate that feeling in your throat when you have a... my mum just cackled REALLY loud! She laughs really like a maniac, it can catch you off guard and you'll be like MMAAAAA!!
Speaking of mums, I went out of the Bio mock to get a drink and Fungi's mum was there with a visitors badge! I was like WTF? and then we had a chat, apparently she just had some time to kill so was walking around the school. Told Fungi and he was like GODDAMN MOTHER! It was hilarious, which isn't good in exam conditions. That mock really wasn't that bad, I knew quite a lot of it but I have the feeling the second half did not go so well. But c'est la vie. Almost wrote c'est that vie. That makes no sense. XD
Bus journeys make my life so awesome right now. I love all my dudes on the bussss.
Cough cough cough! God I cough so hard I feel like I might puke, then I usually sniff and realise I am still not healed, despite feeling better. Maybe it's a mental thing, feeling better.
Headphone man is such an amazing person, I found out so much about him recently cause like he totally opened up. He's a lot like me really, able to open up a lot easier over msn or something where I can't see his face.
I hate that feeling in your throat when you have a... my mum just cackled REALLY loud! She laughs really like a maniac, it can catch you off guard and you'll be like MMAAAAA!!
Speaking of mums, I went out of the Bio mock to get a drink and Fungi's mum was there with a visitors badge! I was like WTF? and then we had a chat, apparently she just had some time to kill so was walking around the school. Told Fungi and he was like GODDAMN MOTHER! It was hilarious, which isn't good in exam conditions. That mock really wasn't that bad, I knew quite a lot of it but I have the feeling the second half did not go so well. But c'est la vie. Almost wrote c'est that vie. That makes no sense. XD
Wednesday, 26 May 2010
A mixed bag
My life right now is a total mixed bag. It's like a pack of revels. Mostly crappy ones (I hate revels).
THE GREATS
Boyfriend is awesome. Friends are awesome, if depressed. My blog is awesome, singular 'cause I ran out of ideas for the other one a long time ago and people judge me and get grossed out by it, great - not. Sorry, I'm moving on to bad already.
THE SHITS
Friends are depressed and I feel helpless, no matter how many minutes or little gestures I dedicate to them to make them happy I still feel upset as they suffer, damn sympathy! I feel like a bad person for shoving Him away in order to revise or spend time with needing mates. Also I get annoyed when people tell me that I am only ever one of two, I am not a sock - I can stand alone. I'm angry at a certain obvious someone for still be alive, happy and rubbing his success at living in a lie right in my face. I am angry that people don't care about this, but then get too touched and upset when they do try and care- to talk about it would be to admit my failure and stupidity. I'm nervous to shit about exams, literally they are scaring me more every waking second. Not to mention this illness makes it hard to concentrate, I cannot breathe, I cannot swallow, I cannot think in straight lines - how am I meant to fly through exams when my brain can't get air!?
Cannot write any more for this blog or I will cry after realise how little happiness there is present right now.
THE GREATS
Boyfriend is awesome. Friends are awesome, if depressed. My blog is awesome, singular 'cause I ran out of ideas for the other one a long time ago and people judge me and get grossed out by it, great - not. Sorry, I'm moving on to bad already.
THE SHITS
Friends are depressed and I feel helpless, no matter how many minutes or little gestures I dedicate to them to make them happy I still feel upset as they suffer, damn sympathy! I feel like a bad person for shoving Him away in order to revise or spend time with needing mates. Also I get annoyed when people tell me that I am only ever one of two, I am not a sock - I can stand alone. I'm angry at a certain obvious someone for still be alive, happy and rubbing his success at living in a lie right in my face. I am angry that people don't care about this, but then get too touched and upset when they do try and care- to talk about it would be to admit my failure and stupidity. I'm nervous to shit about exams, literally they are scaring me more every waking second. Not to mention this illness makes it hard to concentrate, I cannot breathe, I cannot swallow, I cannot think in straight lines - how am I meant to fly through exams when my brain can't get air!?
Cannot write any more for this blog or I will cry after realise how little happiness there is present right now.
Tuesday, 25 May 2010
Diary entries
Decided to go through and find interesting diary entries to give you a looky at the original! Wooo!
Yes. I'm ill and bored with too much time. SHH I'll keep the pictures small so the post isn't huge but click them and they are readable! :) I might transcript if it's hard to read.
The first is my second diary entry ever. The first diary entry was ruddy boring, about my sisters hair. It's a little hard to read. "Dear dairy, (cow go moo?) somethings still wrong with my TV. But on the happy note I'm going to a studies drama art thingy with Kathleen and Shona. (YaY) gotta go! bye! Rachaels saying that I have to turn Catz off and she won't give me my money! Grr! I've just been to the activitie thing and it was good but the dancing was not that good but that was probably because I didn't join in. gotta go see ya. Rachael been a bit not nice today, I mean she's he me with a shoe, she would not give me my money! I'm sure it will clear up. bye!"
The next is an entry done just after I started going out with Luke Saville. I was ecstatic. It does say "Dream come true", that's where the true comes from. No idea what my C&L was. XD
The actual full entry is from my loving sister, leaving a gentle note to tell me to hide my diary. :D Bless.
This one is from Sian, a diary with big spots on the front. Btw it's said "Shawn" and it's a girl diary, doesn't make sense to anyone but me.
Just a quick recap of the week of my holidays. It was just after me and Josh had broken up and I was more than a little bitter. See the large "Screw him!"
I didn't really want to give actual entries to some of my diaries because basically there was one that was clean or free of secrets and bitchness so this is the front of John Doe. JD is probably my fav diary purely because he's so understated in looks. Crappy paper, reporters notebook. Yet it has the most drama and secrets than the rest. I love JD. : ) The poem is mine and yes, a little melodramatic.
This one is also a very depressing diary that was way over dramatic, so I'll just show the front. It's depressing enough to look at this really.
The drawings and things are all really meaningful but only if you read it and then know totally what is going on, otherwise the whole front of it is just absolute gobbledegook. :D P.s This diary is called Valentine.
This one is the beloved Lily. It's a bulletpoint record of a party. Woah, scanning went a bit wrong. It starts with me saying that Dickfaces girlfriend was surprisingly nice to me considering what went on, and then it just says main things I remembered from the night. I like bulletpointing things.
Woo it's the name sake Belle! Some people may remember this event, a barbecue round mine and Stag trying on his kilt. Put this in purely because nobody knows what my original reaction was the to the kilt. Bear in mind it wasn't the one he wore to prom, it was a gross green version! Love it purely before of the phrase "beardy weirdy".
Haha! It's Romeo, the romance diary, completely about guys almost! This particular entry should shock a few peeps as I never really told many about this little flirtacious thing that happened with him. I do hope people have interesting reactions. I'd forgotten this even happened. XD
This one is from Beau, the predecessor to my current Candy. This is where I was still dating Stag but I was beginning to have feelings for Fungi, but I didn't want to acknowledge that fact. It's rather cute looking back on it. :3
Yes. I'm ill and bored with too much time. SHH I'll keep the pictures small so the post isn't huge but click them and they are readable! :) I might transcript if it's hard to read.
The first is my second diary entry ever. The first diary entry was ruddy boring, about my sisters hair. It's a little hard to read. "Dear dairy, (cow go moo?) somethings still wrong with my TV. But on the happy note I'm going to a studies drama art thingy with Kathleen and Shona. (YaY) gotta go! bye! Rachaels saying that I have to turn Catz off and she won't give me my money! Grr! I've just been to the activitie thing and it was good but the dancing was not that good but that was probably because I didn't join in. gotta go see ya. Rachael been a bit not nice today, I mean she's he me with a shoe, she would not give me my money! I'm sure it will clear up. bye!"
The next is an entry done just after I started going out with Luke Saville. I was ecstatic. It does say "Dream come true", that's where the true comes from. No idea what my C&L was. XD
The actual full entry is from my loving sister, leaving a gentle note to tell me to hide my diary. :D Bless.
This one is from Sian, a diary with big spots on the front. Btw it's said "Shawn" and it's a girl diary, doesn't make sense to anyone but me.
Just a quick recap of the week of my holidays. It was just after me and Josh had broken up and I was more than a little bitter. See the large "Screw him!"
I didn't really want to give actual entries to some of my diaries because basically there was one that was clean or free of secrets and bitchness so this is the front of John Doe. JD is probably my fav diary purely because he's so understated in looks. Crappy paper, reporters notebook. Yet it has the most drama and secrets than the rest. I love JD. : ) The poem is mine and yes, a little melodramatic.
This one is also a very depressing diary that was way over dramatic, so I'll just show the front. It's depressing enough to look at this really.
The drawings and things are all really meaningful but only if you read it and then know totally what is going on, otherwise the whole front of it is just absolute gobbledegook. :D P.s This diary is called Valentine.
This one is the beloved Lily. It's a bulletpoint record of a party. Woah, scanning went a bit wrong. It starts with me saying that Dickfaces girlfriend was surprisingly nice to me considering what went on, and then it just says main things I remembered from the night. I like bulletpointing things.Woo it's the name sake Belle! Some people may remember this event, a barbecue round mine and Stag trying on his kilt. Put this in purely because nobody knows what my original reaction was the to the kilt. Bear in mind it wasn't the one he wore to prom, it was a gross green version! Love it purely before of the phrase "beardy weirdy".
Haha! It's Romeo, the romance diary, completely about guys almost! This particular entry should shock a few peeps as I never really told many about this little flirtacious thing that happened with him. I do hope people have interesting reactions. I'd forgotten this even happened. XD
The People
Bonjour readers. I am bored. So lets go! These are the things I would advise you or just tell you or things I think but don't say.
P.Diddy
I can see your scalp! Well not right now, but I could yesterday!
Anyways, you're super funny and super nice. Hope it's going well with that girly, I wish we talked more one on one. It seems that we are only ever together in groups.
Thin One
I'm really sorry I call you Thin One on here, I know you don't like it. I just couldn't think of anything interest...I JUST HAD AN EPIPHANY! Peter Rabbit. Do you know Peter Rabbit? You should know Peter Rabbit, he wore a waistcoat! Unfortunately I cannot be arsed to change the name, people will only be like "But I thought... so who is... What?!" At me and I don't like that. You're hiwawious man. I love talking to you, best person ever to chat with on msn. And I love your doggy. :D
Curltop Aka Newly-bathed-in-shame-boy
He won't read this because he's too busy being a tard. I don't see we bother even trying to include you in anything when all you do is pull away. You can be really nice when you want to be, so charming and funny, but that's not often. Most of the time you cancel plans, make cruel jokes and mock people without reason. Not to mention making silly foolish decisions without any valid reason apart from to protect yourself. You are a whelk.
Mr Electric Meter Man
You just came to my door to read the electric meter but I think I may be in love with you. Gorgeously tall, tanned and ripped beyond belief. You even make that stupid red Npower shirt look sexy. Take me to bed please Mr EMM. ;)
Marshal
You haven't spoken to me in ages WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY.
Frodo
Your trauma recently was really bad and although you are pretty weird, I will be here to lend an ear. (Rhyme!) I shall try not to judge you on preconcieved ideas that I created when you hated me for months, they aren't the nicest judgements. Clean slate boyo.
Stag
Awight. XD It's nice that we've kept things so lovely between us, you have no idea how afraid I was to loose that. You are the most selfless giving person ever and the depths of your forgiveness are unbelieveable. I can't say anything more than Thankyou. And update me more on girl-hunting! I like to be in the know. :)
My dear Fungi, Him.
Don't be so paranoid about your looks, you're gorgeous to me. I get blown away by how lovely you are and all the tiny thoughtfullnesses aren't forgotten. Trying extra hard to make weaker tea, giving me a rose without reason, massive easter egg when I asked for nothing and bearing with having the heater on when you might die from overheating already. I love you.
And now my girlies!
Cheshire
You are so like an iceberg! Not in the sense that you are cold at all because you are so warm and bright, but because you have the most beautiful tip of the iceberg that people see but then all that is hidden is even more interesting. I feel like I'm finally getting to know you really, and not just the funny public side that makes weird faces across lunch tables and then makes a Scottish face before the accent. :D We click so well and you're so easy to get along with, much love my dear!
Goldilocks
Oh goldi goldi goldi. What can I say? The best person to shop with and one that will also sit and get fat with me in McDonalds. Your antics are hilarious and I can't wait to see you again every time and hear the latest story of what's going on in your mind, be it the Arctic Tundra or how to cure world hunger with cannibalism. XD
DarlingOne
Mr dearest rock. So solid and dependable. If I ever need a cry about another silly heartbreaking boy it's to you. Our only problem is being too alike so when we argue we ARGUE. But still, I wouldn't change a smidge. Love the new hair by the way, you're a killer redhead. :D
Skootch/Dollface
There are moments when I will sit across from you and think...Good god this woman is actually mental... and I love it! You're wonderfully paranoid and I love being able to give someone advice and feel all wisened and whatnot. You are a wonderful addition to the girl power side of the Krewe and definately provide much needed entertainment in my otherwise bland days.
Wallflower
I wish we could talk more! I miss the days of pretending to do lengths in the pool so we could catch up whilst bobbing. We ought to go for tea and cake sometime, I right fancy a brownie in the avo. I hope all your life is okay, you never really let much on during the brief times we speak but you seem well enough to fuss over big and small bags. Love you deary.
And onto the ones who are gone from my life, be that a good thing or not.
Dickface
Go die, throw yourself down a ditch with your skinny bitch of a girlfriend and I hope a large shard of metal peirces your stupid head. : )
RainbowDoll
I miss you right now. Our choc and chats were so deep and soul-healing. I'm in mental agony at the minute and I wish I could bring back the old you for a good suger-filled chat. You know exactly what I'm feeling right now in certain areas and I can only wish that you were here to talk reason into me.
BarbieDoll
I miss having one person to rely on, you were that one for so long in my life. You really helped me through that time where I lost almost everything and I never thanked you enough for that. I hope your new life is treating you well and that your exams go swimmingly. : )
Hope I have not insulted anyone during this, love you all except one and a half : D
P.Diddy
I can see your scalp! Well not right now, but I could yesterday!
Thin One
I'm really sorry I call you Thin One on here, I know you don't like it. I just couldn't think of anything interest...I JUST HAD AN EPIPHANY! Peter Rabbit. Do you know Peter Rabbit? You should know Peter Rabbit, he wore a waistcoat! Unfortunately I cannot be arsed to change the name, people will only be like "But I thought... so who is... What?!" At me and I don't like that. You're hiwawious man. I love talking to you, best person ever to chat with on msn. And I love your doggy. :D
Curltop Aka Newly-bathed-in-shame-boy
He won't read this because he's too busy being a tard. I don't see we bother even trying to include you in anything when all you do is pull away. You can be really nice when you want to be, so charming and funny, but that's not often. Most of the time you cancel plans, make cruel jokes and mock people without reason. Not to mention making silly foolish decisions without any valid reason apart from to protect yourself. You are a whelk.
Mr Electric Meter Man
You just came to my door to read the electric meter but I think I may be in love with you. Gorgeously tall, tanned and ripped beyond belief. You even make that stupid red Npower shirt look sexy. Take me to bed please Mr EMM. ;)Marshal
You haven't spoken to me in ages WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY.
Frodo
Your trauma recently was really bad and although you are pretty weird, I will be here to lend an ear. (Rhyme!) I shall try not to judge you on preconcieved ideas that I created when you hated me for months, they aren't the nicest judgements. Clean slate boyo.
Stag
Awight. XD It's nice that we've kept things so lovely between us, you have no idea how afraid I was to loose that. You are the most selfless giving person ever and the depths of your forgiveness are unbelieveable. I can't say anything more than Thankyou. And update me more on girl-hunting! I like to be in the know. :)
My dear Fungi, Him.Don't be so paranoid about your looks, you're gorgeous to me. I get blown away by how lovely you are and all the tiny thoughtfullnesses aren't forgotten. Trying extra hard to make weaker tea, giving me a rose without reason, massive easter egg when I asked for nothing and bearing with having the heater on when you might die from overheating already. I love you.
And now my girlies!
Cheshire
You are so like an iceberg! Not in the sense that you are cold at all because you are so warm and bright, but because you have the most beautiful tip of the iceberg that people see but then all that is hidden is even more interesting. I feel like I'm finally getting to know you really, and not just the funny public side that makes weird faces across lunch tables and then makes a Scottish face before the accent. :D We click so well and you're so easy to get along with, much love my dear!Goldilocks
Oh goldi goldi goldi. What can I say? The best person to shop with and one that will also sit and get fat with me in McDonalds. Your antics are hilarious and I can't wait to see you again every time and hear the latest story of what's going on in your mind, be it the Arctic Tundra or how to cure world hunger with cannibalism. XD
DarlingOne
Mr dearest rock. So solid and dependable. If I ever need a cry about another silly heartbreaking boy it's to you. Our only problem is being too alike so when we argue we ARGUE. But still, I wouldn't change a smidge. Love the new hair by the way, you're a killer redhead. :D
Skootch/Dollface
There are moments when I will sit across from you and think...Good god this woman is actually mental... and I love it! You're wonderfully paranoid and I love being able to give someone advice and feel all wisened and whatnot. You are a wonderful addition to the girl power side of the Krewe and definately provide much needed entertainment in my otherwise bland days.
Wallflower
I wish we could talk more! I miss the days of pretending to do lengths in the pool so we could catch up whilst bobbing. We ought to go for tea and cake sometime, I right fancy a brownie in the avo. I hope all your life is okay, you never really let much on during the brief times we speak but you seem well enough to fuss over big and small bags. Love you deary.
And onto the ones who are gone from my life, be that a good thing or not.
DickfaceGo die, throw yourself down a ditch with your skinny bitch of a girlfriend and I hope a large shard of metal peirces your stupid head. : )
RainbowDoll
I miss you right now. Our choc and chats were so deep and soul-healing. I'm in mental agony at the minute and I wish I could bring back the old you for a good suger-filled chat. You know exactly what I'm feeling right now in certain areas and I can only wish that you were here to talk reason into me.
BarbieDoll
I miss having one person to rely on, you were that one for so long in my life. You really helped me through that time where I lost almost everything and I never thanked you enough for that. I hope your new life is treating you well and that your exams go swimmingly. : )
Hope I have not insulted anyone during this, love you all except one and a half : D
Epic Blog Update
Oh Yes, I'm heading back to the traditional Belle style of catagorising things. :D
Health
Starting with the worst so you'll forget it by the end. I have the worst, cough/cold combo I have ever suffered. I'm currently on three different types of drugs, still can't breathe through my nose and feel like I swallowed a binbag full of ash. It's so dry and scratchy in the my throat right now, I'd rather chop a toe off than sneeze.... okay I lie. Only if the toe grew back perfect. I really hate one of my toes alright!
Body
New catagory! Coming into summer I am becoming incredibly body conscious. I don't think it's conscious... more aware. More body aware. I am aware I have a pinch of a belly - do I care...that's another matter. I have been eating shit for the past two weeks and also dropped four pounds. I'm going to blame revision and worry for that, so go you!
Mind
Of course I had to do mind if I had body! Well basically half of me feels like it's been bit off, chewed up, swallowed, sicked out and shat on by a panda. The other half is so elated it's like a helium balloon pulling on the depressed strings that attach it to the other half of my mind. OW I JUST COUGHED
Friends
One of my bessies has just suffered a loss which may hit her hard or softly. Either way, it's hit her and I am hoping to act as temporarily air bag to pain. I don't like my mates being hurt so I shall be doing my best to rally forth with too-soon jokes and texts filled with love and support! Yay! Other friends seem to be fine, none have any beef with me, which is lucky 'cause I feel like chicken tonight. :D Admit it, that joke was awesome. I don't feel awfully close to any one particular person recently and it's bothering me. It means that I have to turn to a different person for every crisis. Forbidden boy crisises go to DarlingOne whereas boyfriend crisis are shared between her, C and Cheshire. Then if I have a family crises I go to C as she is the voice of adult reason. And then if I have a body crisis I run straight to Cheshire again. What a palava. Almost wrote pavlova then which is totally different.
Love
Skip if you don't want to hear gooey happy sweet sickness because I'm afraid to say it's going rather well. We haven't argued properly in a long while and the little tiffs are easier to brush off because I can see now when I'm overreacting. The only thing coming between us is a few crush issues which I am personally ironing out. I miss him when he's away, when we are together there is no pressure to be an amazing girlfriend or attractive, I can just slump in his arms and he will still love me. He might ask me to move cause I'm crushing his arms but that's reality for you.
Bus
WAAAHHHH my darling headphone man will be leaving after his exams are done! He may only be here for a while longer and I'm gutted. We really got closer over the past few weeks and I loved chatting with him, trying to make him awkward in the mornings and beating him in the avo. He's promised to give me a bracelet when he leaves, bless the poor sod. XD
School
Exams are coming. Looming over me like a massive black hairy cloud with tentacles. I shall try and keep my cool but the closer I get, the more the Mind and Health departments will suffer. I am an absolute horror for nervous illnesses. Even meeting with the Krewe can send me bolting for the bathroom if it's an 'event'. Hate my own reflexes. I'll get through it though, with or without a cold. Grrr!
So that's my mega update and I still have hours left to kill before anyone is online. Do I revise or write an analysis of each person....? I KNOW!
Health
Starting with the worst so you'll forget it by the end. I have the worst, cough/cold combo I have ever suffered. I'm currently on three different types of drugs, still can't breathe through my nose and feel like I swallowed a binbag full of ash. It's so dry and scratchy in the my throat right now, I'd rather chop a toe off than sneeze.... okay I lie. Only if the toe grew back perfect. I really hate one of my toes alright!
Body
New catagory! Coming into summer I am becoming incredibly body conscious. I don't think it's conscious... more aware. More body aware. I am aware I have a pinch of a belly - do I care...that's another matter. I have been eating shit for the past two weeks and also dropped four pounds. I'm going to blame revision and worry for that, so go you!
Mind
Of course I had to do mind if I had body! Well basically half of me feels like it's been bit off, chewed up, swallowed, sicked out and shat on by a panda. The other half is so elated it's like a helium balloon pulling on the depressed strings that attach it to the other half of my mind. OW I JUST COUGHED
Friends
One of my bessies has just suffered a loss which may hit her hard or softly. Either way, it's hit her and I am hoping to act as temporarily air bag to pain. I don't like my mates being hurt so I shall be doing my best to rally forth with too-soon jokes and texts filled with love and support! Yay! Other friends seem to be fine, none have any beef with me, which is lucky 'cause I feel like chicken tonight. :D Admit it, that joke was awesome. I don't feel awfully close to any one particular person recently and it's bothering me. It means that I have to turn to a different person for every crisis. Forbidden boy crisises go to DarlingOne whereas boyfriend crisis are shared between her, C and Cheshire. Then if I have a family crises I go to C as she is the voice of adult reason. And then if I have a body crisis I run straight to Cheshire again. What a palava. Almost wrote pavlova then which is totally different.
Love
Skip if you don't want to hear gooey happy sweet sickness because I'm afraid to say it's going rather well. We haven't argued properly in a long while and the little tiffs are easier to brush off because I can see now when I'm overreacting. The only thing coming between us is a few crush issues which I am personally ironing out. I miss him when he's away, when we are together there is no pressure to be an amazing girlfriend or attractive, I can just slump in his arms and he will still love me. He might ask me to move cause I'm crushing his arms but that's reality for you.
Bus
WAAAHHHH my darling headphone man will be leaving after his exams are done! He may only be here for a while longer and I'm gutted. We really got closer over the past few weeks and I loved chatting with him, trying to make him awkward in the mornings and beating him in the avo. He's promised to give me a bracelet when he leaves, bless the poor sod. XD
School
Exams are coming. Looming over me like a massive black hairy cloud with tentacles. I shall try and keep my cool but the closer I get, the more the Mind and Health departments will suffer. I am an absolute horror for nervous illnesses. Even meeting with the Krewe can send me bolting for the bathroom if it's an 'event'. Hate my own reflexes. I'll get through it though, with or without a cold. Grrr!
So that's my mega update and I still have hours left to kill before anyone is online. Do I revise or write an analysis of each person....? I KNOW!
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